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it takes you back either to a moment you want to keep or a period you want to erase.
flashbacks: it could bring you on top of the world of break you in a snap.
but you also have the option not to think about it.
and just play a poker face. that way, you never lose.
the only catch is, who else are you kidding but yourself too? :(
masaya bumalik sa Pampanga. nakita ko ulit mga relatives namin. sobrang saya makipagkuwentuhan sa mga pinsan ko. grabe ilang years na lang karamihan sa amin magtatrabaho na rin. may plano nga kami lahat na magpatayo ng resthouse ng pamilya De Mesa somewhere sa Pampanga. hahaha nakakatuwa nga kasi iba-iba kami lahat ng field. may mga nurse, doctor, architect, engineer, accountant, physical therapist, flight attendants, teacher, artista, daner, singer (ako, haha pero asa pa!) at kung anu-ano pa. tutuparin talaga namin yan, one day.
i felt like a piece inside of me has been restored. i guess that's the benefit of coming back to your roots. i feel like i've been grounded, in a good way. i also got to see the old church and my school. a lot has changed, grabe. nevertheless, the people are still the same - jolly, warm and caring. hay. it feels great to be in the province again.
in the meantime, i got some new plans coming up. seriously, (and I'm not here to brag) i think I've proven enough about and to myself in my current job. i think my position is the farthest i'll go in this particular field. i want to try a new careeer. but of course, i want to finish this year first, before making new steps. i think by then i'm ready for my next move. God will be with me. i am confident that wherever I'll go next, i will be successful, because it's all for God's glory.
still having fun! hehe. aja! ;) man, i miss a lot of people. i'll get to see more of my beloved friends perhaps when i make the BIG move. where that place is, I don't know yet, but i am ecstatic! :)
- Mood:
determined - Music:Thunder - Boys Like Girls
One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"
"It was great, Dad."
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah," said the son.
"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.
The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."
Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.
- Mood:
thoughtful
masaya ako last weekend kasi nag-celebrate ng birthday ang daddy ko, tsaka nag-punta ako sa Manila (after like what, a month?) to celebrate naman my officemate's birthday. ang saya! namiss ko ang Espana! hahaha!
liban sa mga birthday celebrations, marami ring mga bagay na kinalaman sa music ang naganap. for one, nakita ko sila rang, nikki, coco at kuya pao! ang saya saya ko. tas videoke all night sa bahay nila julie (yung may birthday) with some of our officemates. ang saya.
i wasn't able to buy my guitar this weekend, hehe kasi nauwi ako sa shopping. hello there new clothes! hahaha. winner rin ako sa ka-vain-an ko dahil nagpagupit rin ako ng buhok. adik. hahaha! ngayon pala nagbabayad na rin ako ng ibang bills sa bahay. wow. feeling ko talaga matanda na ako. haha.
excited na naman ako this coming weekend kasi special guest ang family namin sa church namin sa Pampanga. my dad and mom will have some speaking engagements dun eh. high school friends reunion na ito! tsaka baka doon ulit ako bibili ng gitara para mura na, maganda pa! hehe.
God is really good. grabe, October na pala. totoo nga, this is a year of redemption. yung mga bagay na nawala sa amin noong 2007, nababawi na namin, and we're even getting more than what we lost last year. ang galing ni Lord. panalo talaga!
may bago na naman pala akong binabasang libro. Coelho book na naman. hahaha. kamown! teka, yung entry ko about the new things i want to do, ipo-post ko soon. wheeeeee!
another week. lezgo! aja aja fighting! (^o^)m
- Location:home :)
- Mood:
energetic - Music:Everything is Beautiful - Starfield
isang malaking SMILEY! :D
I LOVE YOU LORD! :)
awesome love! indescribable! perfect! :)
- Mood:
enthralled
hahaha! natutuwa talaga ako sa OPM. na-miss ko, sobra! siguro kasi nagsawa na ako sa Korean songs at American music. kasi naman eh. ni hindi ko nga alam kung ano nang balita sa Pilipinas. ang alam ko lang na news ay tungkol sa South Korea at USA. kamusta naman?!
ilan ito sa mga songs na sobrang fvorite ko dati. gusto ko lang balikan hehe. napapangiti ako eh. :) share ko lang.
- Mood:
cheerful
ang sarap magpahinga. i deserve a break. even students have what you call a "sembreak" (foreign term??!haha), so why can't i have one? :)
this saturday na! wuhoo new guitar! i'm excited! :)
btw, meron na ako agad aaraling kanta. haha. natuwa ulit ako sa opm. i like this song a lot eh. grabe SOBRANG excited nako! as in! :)
- Mood:
inspired - Music:Panaginip - Wake up Your Seatmate
i miss doing my favorite hobbies. i miss some people. i miss my old life. but then, what's in front of me is even more exciting, so why should i fuss over what's already in the past? forget it! haha, joke. besides, there "no use crying over spilt milk". hehe!
i realized, instead of mulling over the things which are already "history", it's better to just stay focused on what is at present and work towards a better future. it would also be good if we'll still bring some stuff from the past with us. we should just keep in mind to bring helpful stuff; those which made us wiser and better people.
speaking of bringing some stuff from the past, i decided to do some things that i've used to enjoy before (aside from reading, of course, which i have been up to these days). since i can't sing with some friends everyday, i will just go back to playing guitar. i really need a hobby so that i'll be able to relax whenever work gets too stressful. for that, i'll be needing a new guitar, because the old one, Chiqkay, is already broken. so, i'll get myself a new guitar! whee! :)
i also have some plans of going back and serving in the ministry i've always grown to love. :)
hey, how about trying some new things too? i'll be posting the new things i plan to do really soon. yey! :)
- Location:sa opis! hahaha! :D
- Music:Found My Place - Augustana
napaisip ako, kasi palagi ko na lang iniisip kung anong mga dapat kong gawin bukas para maging masaya ako. narealize ko, pwede naman akong maging masaya ngayon na. kelangan ko lang magbilang ng blessings. ^^ sobrang helpful pala yun to get rid of worrying about the future. isa pa, naisip ko, kung mamamatay ako bukas, I might as well have lived my life to the fullest diba? kaya what do i have to lose?
napatunayan ko rin na i really have nothing to prove to anyone, kaya why should i waste my time making my so-called image like this or like that. why not just be myself and bahala na kung anong iisipin about me? haha! :D
natutuwa ako kasi marami akong natutunan sa mga nabanggit kong libro. eto magsisingit ako ng quote hehe:
"There is a whole world of difference between those who look only for their own happiness in this world and those who know that their true happiness lies in the will of God."
Brilliant! :)
- Music:Lullaby - Augustana
eto na naman ako, namimiss ko na naman ang college. pero siyempre, aware naman ako na hindi na ako makakabalik doon. parte na yun ng history ng buhay ko. makakabalik pa ako dun, pero things won't be the same, and people won't be the same again. lahat talaga nagbabago.
dati, sabi ko, masaya ako sa mga pagbabago. tapos minsan matatakot ako. tapos minsan excited ako. minsan naman, ayoko ng pagbabago. gusto ko lang manatili yung mga bagay the way i want them to. pero hindi naman puwede yun. imposible yun. isa pa, kung lahat ng bagay mags-stay the same, magiging boring ang buhay at hindi na tayo mag-grow. sa buhay naman natin marami talagang "growing pains" eh. lahat tayo tumatanda, nagma-mature, at siyempre para mangyari yun kelangan dumaan tayo sa mga trials, problems at kung anu-ano pa.
tama na nga about my reflections. hehe. eto, share ko lang ang desiderata. natuwa ako eh. ang galing. punong-puno ng wisdom. :)
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Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
--- Max Ehrmann, 1927
